Hell In The Moment

I wanted it so bad
Commited myself to the path
That goes nowhere fast
Grasping at hope was all I had
Should've know I didn't even have that
I was heading for a crash
I saw it coming, I prepared for the blow
But it still hurt like hell in the moment
Give me some time, I need a moment
I'll be just fine, my heart will mend
I know this feeling was not your intent
But give me a moment to get up again
When it hit me I could see my denial
Had hidden my secret hopes and I lied
When I said I didn't mind
Tried to pretend I had nothing to lose
Cause I knew the way you would choose
Was gonna bring me down

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Turned away so you wouldn't see
Just how much this affected me
Turn the lights off so I can sleep
Shut your mouth and just let me be
Dry my eyes so I can sleep
Tomorrow morning I'll be back to me
Try to take me down if you like
Finish off the job, well you could try
But you better be prepared
I'm not the easy mark I appeared to be
In that moment yeah I know I was weak
But now that moments gone